Friday, December 24, 2010
I'm really feeling it this year! My desire to be a mother, to have a child, a family, is enveloping me.
I can hear a little voice calling me mama. I can feel a tug on my shirt as a little one clamours for my attention. I go to sleep each night feeling like I'm going to be awakened by a cry in night that I will have to respond to.
I can imagine a little face, eyes wide, mouth in a wonderous O, as the tree is lit for the first time. I keep feeling like I need to bundle up myself and a little child so we can walk over to my little town's Christmas Tree Lane and see all the lights and visit Santa.
I have presents that should be wrapped and placed under my tree to be opened in the morning by small hands.
I feel like I should have bought a pink bicycle to go under the tree for a certain little six year-old.