Sunday, January 16, 2011
Big Announcement at Church
For the past four years, there have only been a handful of people who I told about my adoption. I did this for several reasons:
1. I knew it would take a long time.
2. I didn't want certain people judging my decision.
3. It was the most special thing in the world to me and I didn't want to expose myself to the questions and comments of the well-meaning and not-so-well-meaning.
Today at church during Relief Society, sort of an all women's Sunday School class, it was announced that I was going to be a mom! Right before the meeting started, I got so nervous and felt like I was exposing my most vulnerable, sacred part of myself and I almost chickened out, but I knew it was the right time. Then, as I sat there through the other announcements first, I started crying. Those next to me who didn't know asked if I was okay and I nodded and smiled and those who knew gave me understanding, supportive looks. Then, the announcement was made!
It just so happened that today a Chinese woman was at church who lives between here and Beijing. She was one of the first I told, way back in the beginning. She was soooo happy for me and my daughter! She couldn't stop hugging me. She's said that she'll help me translate the rest of her file (I'm going to see if this is a service provided by my agency first). I hope she'll also help me with my care package and Chinese New Year's cards. I decided to put one together myself. I needed it to be more personalized then the services offered.