Monday, February 25, 2013

Dream a Little, Dream of Me

My agency has locked a child's file for me today! It sure feels like she's my Apple. The instant I saw her name, I knew. The second I saw her special need, I knew. The moment I saw her picture, I was in love!

I am praying like crazy, that the powers that be in Beijing will accept my Letter of Intent and allow me to adopt this precious little girl.

Just like with my other girls, I was laughing and crying at the same time when I found out that the file had been locked. I love that feeling! It's the feeling of a miracle.

Saturday, February 23, 2013

Our Latest Craze

Would you believe that a 14 year-old and a 12 year-old would absolutely LOVE having their mama blow raspberries on their necks and tummies? It's like Happy Juice for them. When I play "baby" games with them, they feel so happy and loved. It's the perfect way to send them to sleep at night.

Wednesday, February 20, 2013


I am on my way to finding Apple! My agency called today to let me know that my dossier was logged in before the person in charge left for the Chinese New Year holiday. My official Log In Date is Feb. 6, 2013! I'm doing the Happy LID Dance!!!

I can't believe I'm doing this again! What a dream!

Friday, February 15, 2013

Last Week In Los Angeles

Waiting to go into pre-op.

Pre-op. Relaxed and happy, no Versed needed.

She's still doing well, though my insides were starting to tremble.

Finally home and getting a peek at the cockpit while waiting for the stroller to be brought up.

My sweet brave girl.

Sleeping it off on Mama's bed.

Happy 9th Birthday!

It's been almost two years since this little gem became my daughter. She has shown me the most joyful parts of motherhood. It's hard to convey how tiny she still is. Her four-year-old friend is only 2-3 inches shorter than she is and he's a perfectly average sized four year-old. Last week, she was weighed and measured. She is 113.5 cm tall (44 3/4") and 42.4 pounds. She was 102.5 cm when I adopted her! When I look back at those pictures, she looks like a 3 year old in my arms at 7 years of age. I still marvel at how tiny she is; how easy it still is to pick her up and hold her.

She wanted her birthday on the weekend, with family only, so she will have her cake tomorrow, but we celebrated a little yesterday with friends at a restaurant and she had a fun time.

Wednesday, February 6, 2013

Live From Los Angeles

We are in Los Angeles right now, finally meeting great medical specialists for Jie Jie. We had a day of consultations today, and tomorrow will be diagnostic tests and procedures. We are staying at the Ronald McDonald House, a great situation. We've not eaten out at all; I stopped at a grocery store on the way from the airport and we've been eating just like at home, which has been a blessing. The girls are doing well, and we'll be home tomorrow night. There are some amazing kids here, some without arms and legs or hair, a mother expecting her first baby, who will be born with her small intestine on the outside (still has a good prognosis), and all kinds of parents in the trenches of parenting kids with special needs. It's a good atmosphere.

Tonight, a local Chinese charity brought in pizza (we ate my own spaghetti with meat sauce and broccoli) and a cake for all the kids having birthdays this month, one of which is Jie Jie. We all sang to her and she blew out a candle. Then, they gave out red envelopes with chocolate coins for Chinese New Year and did Chinese songs and crafts. The girls had a good time.

I'm holding up well. It's nice to do this away from home so that it's the only thing to concentrate on, just like adopting in China, no daily grind. Tonight we went out in the car in search of bath towels because we only get two here and no washclothes, and we found ourselves at the Griffith Observatory. It's a free astronomy/telescope/exhibit place in a beautiful parkland and building. We watched the sun go down, saw the big Hollywood sign on the hill, and learned a bit about the moon, earth, stars and more. I wish I'd had my camera with me, but I didn't at that time.

The girls were enthralled with the rental car. How did I get it? How can I have two cars? How do I know how to drive it? There is so little they know, it's moments like this, being out of our own environment, that really brings it to the forefront.

I have to give our Fairy Godmother another huge thank you for Jie Jie's special stroller. We are using it here like crazy since it's a good 5 block walk to the medical fascilities.

Breakfast this morning.

Recognize this guy?

Fun with Chinese crafts.

Poster from the wall of the first specialist we saw today.

Friday, February 1, 2013

Welcome to 2013: DTC (again) Jan.28

The big news is that my dossier was sent to China last Monday!!! This dossier is to replace the one that was mistakenly used. A whole lot of us are praying that it's accepted as promised and that things go smoothly. Once I have a log in date, I can look at files and find my precious Apple.

I know I've not blogged lately; no news means life is rolling along. Our days are mundane, not even worth taking pictures of since all you'd see are three girls sitting at a table doing school work, or playing with their toys. The girls are all progressing and doing well, considering where they each started.

Sissy has continued to attach and progress. She is applying herself more to her schoolwork and to life in general, which is very nice. There are no magic fixes for being terribly behind in school, but we take things day by day and measure progress from where we started. She has done some very sweet things, like unload the dishwasher several times to surprise me. She's being a very good big sister.

Blossom is also progressing well. Again, progress is measured from where we started, not comparing American kids of the same age. She is progressing in her schoolwork and I've learned to introduce new material slowly and carefully so she doesn't feel overwhelmed or defeated. Again, no magic fixes for being terribly behind in school. Progress is a hug and a kiss and no tantrums at bedtime, not what level math she's doing.

Jie Jie is still tiny and sweet. I'm trying to get her to understand what being 9 years-old means since her birthday is coming up soon, but she only sees her tiny size 5 self and doesn't understand. She says, "But mama, I'm still little. I don't feel big. I'm not ready to be big." She may not realize it, but I can see my baby starting to grow up.

More good news is that the girls are on a much better insurance plan now. We are still with the same HMO, but now it's real insurance that covers everything.

I am looking forward to 2013 with excited eagerness. I've always dreamed of having four children more than I've dreamed of anything else in the world and this year that dream will come true!

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